That feel that you could sense

You; The vampire in my dreams!

Being safe under dead leaf

Stop bewildering me with your signs.
Sometimes they say, you loves me.
At other times, they says you don't.
You drops clues for me to follow you
Through the sands, rocks, valleys and hills
That you often walk through
With no reasons to forward, me too follow-on you.
It's hard to explain how I feel when I'm chased,
By someone that I've predilection.

It's a feeling that makes me feel so good
And you always makes me feel that way 
What makes you to turn a blind eye?
And you stay idle like you ain't done anything
After pulling me down to the stream of love
Finally making me to drench in it 
You baffles me and drives me crazy
Telling me, that you likes crazy me
While I'm badly driven lunatic
Like I have never been before
What's that you want from me?

I was a charcoal that was hidden by the dead leaf
Unseen by anyone in my safe zone
What makes the wind blew so hard
To wipe away those leafs
Leaving me insecure from my safe zone
Eventually making you to notice me
With all my feebleness
Leaving me in chaos
I'm in search for a place to hide
Far away from you where you can't reach me.
I'm in trouble struggling to defence myself from you
Albeit I love being with you.
Thou makes me feel secure and insecure at a time
I loose my 'self' in me which I was so sure once
I'm flayed, of being changed to someone else
I'm struggling deterring myself from being into you

Don't know where it ends.
Life is a struggle to outlive the hardships of life
Ignoring the facts of being chased.
Putting on a mask, alienating yourself from you.
And walking back to the past that you were in before
To the safe zone under the dead leaf, Messing it up..